make love. not war

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 20:49:45 GMT

i think your boyfriend is a creep.
...and you are so blind to it.

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 00:01:03 GMT

just because a boy is faithful doesn't mean he's a good boyfriend.

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 08:10:19 GMT

theres this one picture. it's of sam lisa, bailey, and souto at john's out of the darkness walk.
theres so much hurt in all of your eyes.

it makes me hurt.

Fri, 27 Nov 2009 06:32:21 GMT

i never thought i'd ever in my whole life say this but...

i think i want to live on south beach after college out here.
weirrrrddd

happy thanksgiving.

i love my family, my friends, my boyfriend, and my amazing quiet life

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 16:35:52 GMT

it's weird sometimes when i think about it.

i'm a nobody out here.

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 22:25:53 GMT

your sister is 15 years old.
and she has half naked provocative pictures posted all over the internet.

what's it going to take? actually seeing a 60 year old man masturbate to your little sisters pictures with the "i want to fuck you" words written all over her face.
SHE IS 15 YEARS OLD.
and already being percieved as some slave or pretty thing for men to look at.
"give me attention" screams from these pictures.

and the way this photographer sees her, is as a whore.
she is the slut subject in all of the photos.
and for some twisted reason, i think she likes it.

where is the mother!!?

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 20:24:47 GMT

and with you.
i swear i am infinite.

i love you.

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 19:29:01 GMT

i miss briana carey and lisa bowser in my life.

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 16:33:15 GMT

baby, you bring out the best in me.

Tue, 01 Sep 2009 20:19:01 GMT

i can't afford being an art student.

money is stopping me from a masterpiece.

i'm strongly considering dropping my fine arts major in studio art, and just studying it from an outsider, as an art history major.
It frustrates me.
or...
take out a loan?

i'm scared and tired and overworked.
i have too many responsibilities
i have too many impossible dreams
and now i'm crashing.
...is this realization?

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 21:11:14 GMT

it's been one year sinced i packed up two bags and moved to new mexico for college.

i went home.
and NOTHING is the same anymore.

i didn't like it there. i felt stressed and out of my element. i am no longer that person.

i am living the best

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 07:09:06 GMT

john brigido.
i know you're still watchin out for all of us.
it sounds insane but i swear i can feel your presence

this town is not the same without you physically here. shit's changed, john.
i love you and miss you forever.

one love baby
you make me want to live THAT much more.

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 01:56:17 GMT

at the club:
"attention everyone. i just want you all to know that i am dancing with the most beautiful girl in this club right now. and her name is jodi rosenblum."

and in that moment, i swear i was infinite.

and to you dad:

I REFUSE TO WATCH YOU EAT YOUR LIFE AWAY. i will not be a witness.
you've done everything for me. you've supplied me with everything i could ever want. you've given me more love than i've ever experienced. you gave me shelter, protection, and a beautiful childhood. and i love you so much for that.

daddy, if theres any way i can possibly thank you, it's by keeping you alive. i care too much about you to see you do this to yourself.
i love you. and i want you to be healthy. if theres anything to preserve in life, it's your health. why don't you see that?

we cannot stop aging.
we cannot stop accidents
we cannot stop murders

but we can stop ourselves from dying due to health concerns.
it's a choice.

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 16:28:47 GMT

your presence continues to follow and watch over me.
...and for that i will love you forever.

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 23:38:25 GMT

I am not unbearable to live with.
i'm hardly ever home.

but living in a room that is 90 degrees is not normal.
i thought i was going to be sick,
but instead. i told my roommate i can't live with her anymore.

shes moving out next week.

i can sleep without sweating.
and she can live by herself with a higher rent, and still no air.

sucks when things don't work out.
but i guess if she wanted this place bad enough, she would get a job.

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 00:57:20 GMT

blah. i'm so stressed out.

Fri, 17 Jul 2009 19:32:49 GMT

for once, i think i am intrigued by your originality and not your looks

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 17:02:32 GMT

i am something of the extraordinary,

are you?

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 21:14:31 GMT

i lose respect for you every time you run back to him.

are you enjoying the attention?

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 19:00:12 GMT

i can't stop looking at pictures and videos.
i can't help but feel your presence with me all the time.
i love you john. i miss you.
in a month, i'm going to go home, to silver lakes, and you really wont be there.
i dont want it to become so real.

i cant accept it. i cant stop crying. come back?

ps: another kid i knew was shot and killed yesterday from albuquerque.

we need better gun laws!
people should not have access to these things.

thats two! two people i have know who died to a bullet.
this should not be happening.

Sun, 05 Jul 2009 16:53:44 GMT

in 21 days, it will mark the one year anniversary of me being a new mexico resident.

...and i couldn't have made a better decision.

i am so lucky to live here. you florida kids have NO idea.
there is so much more out there.

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 05:01:02 GMT

sometimes i get the feeling that other people's lack of originality rubs off only to give me a lack of originality.

if someone were to write a book about my life, what would they have to say?

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 21:13:20 GMT

today i decided that i'm going to drop 10-15 pounds by august 12.
HELLLOOO strict, healthy eating.

maybe then all my hard work at the gym will show.
i can feel my abs. but i cant see them. so its time to rid more fat.

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 21:36:55 GMT

love is permanent.

Sat, 13 Jun 2009 19:58:36 GMT

its as if i couldn't for any more.

life is so amazing.

i have the best job
i wake up every morning to go to my american film writing class. ( working on movie review for pulp fiction)
I enjoy my math class. it is easy and i feel confident that i will get an A
i hang out with the most ineresting, good looking men albuquerque has to offer.
i live right next door to my sister.
my roommate is the best.
my best friends will be here in 2 months
my dad in less than 1 month
mandy in 1 month
i will be in pembroke pines in almost 2 months.

i have SO much to live for!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! eeeeeee i love it